Hainz..depression

Bubble was put up for adoption for other ppl..sob sob..cause he too attention seeking..can't afford it..chris daddy no like no like also..hainz..i got his photo also...next time den load it up here..sob sob..miss him alr..T.T......den my parent got argument...no peace for me..kena scolding me for nothing..den always said i useless..bluh bluh..hainz..sometime i juz wanna get out of the house...stay somewhere else...my mood have been down den down den down..dunno when will i break down den go IMH?!i tink even i stay there i won't get scolded for nothing..sometime my mood got so back tat i even think of suciding..but i didn't do it of course..i wanna live to make them suffer as they are doing to me now..everytime mom said i don't tink for the family..always make them suffer dunno how to care n understand others..like they will alway tink for other..yes they tink wat is best for us but nv ask us if it is really wat we want..y everyone have to suffer because one is suffering..??..izzit i do alot of bad stuff in my previous life tat now i have to suffer..??hainz...